I have received a lot of TP's of late, many through the PAPOUG game, through trying to recognize others as consistently as possible on the TP and Star threads, through trying to acknowldge the work and input of others here, and I believe, (though I don't know for sure), because people feel I contribute in a positive way.
This is very disheartening for me, because I feel TP's are a positive thing, whether to encourage others to contribute more, a way of applauding good posts, a way of saying thank you, or a way of getting rewards and enticements for getting people involved in posting and games, etc., and I think it's sad that jealousy over TP's is being used to question the integrity of some here.
A very nasty comment was directed toward me yesterday in this respect ... from someone who I have consistently acknowledged and thanked in the TP and Star threads, but who has almost always declined to acknowldge it or thank my efforts. Whatever, that's their right, and I don't do it to receive their thanks anyway. I do it because I try to treat everyone here with kindness and thoughtfulness, whether I have had past issues with someone or not, sometimes as an olive branch. And if that is repaid by TP's, then that's the privilege of others, and if some are inclined to ignore it, that's their perrogative, too.
It really is a shame that the pettiness and jealousy of some motivate them to "stir the pot" over something as benign and positive as TP's, because I think it was meant as an encouragement and reward, and it's one of the fun things that sets CB apart from other blogs. It encourages people to let others know that their contributions are welcomed and enjoyed, and it's just plain fun. But if it has become a tool for others to grind their axes out of spite or jealousy or anger or pettiness, then maybe it should be discontinued.
I have to assume, from the recent comments and behavior of certain individuals, that this is directed at me in large part, and I wish to ask all those in CelticsBlog to STOP giving me TP's ... PERIOD. I'm frankly sick of my integrity being questioned behind my back, and my character being maligned, over something that was meant to be positive and encouraging. It really makes me sad and disheartened to know that others feel the need to turn something positive into a tool for retribution, or a way to get back at others instead of approaching them honestly and discussing it one-on-one.
There are some people in this life who are never happy or satisfied unless they stir the pot and create trouble for others, because they lack the backbone and integrity to approach someone they have an issue with in a direct way and come to a mutual understanding, instead they sneak around behind people's backs in order to create trouble for them, or make accusations to the mods in an attempt to further their agenda, all motivated in this case, because someone gets more TP's than they do.
It's truly sad, because now something that was meant to be fun and positive and encouraging and rewarding, has been tainted by pettiness, jealousy, and spite. I know I have received many TP's of late, quite a few from the PAPOUG game, from posting congrats on the TP and Star threads, and from people who feel I'm a positive influence. I don't know where they ALL come from, but I know that if asked, the many people who give them would say so, and they have DONE so in a positive way, out of kindness or compliment or friendship, and not as a competition.
Frankly, I would like to request openly here to have my TP's reset to zero and no longer receive ANY, because it seems to be the only way I can stop this suspicion and pettiness and vindictiveness and jealousy attached to my TP count. I have ALWAYS been thoughtful and kind to others here, and have done so even when others have refused to acknowledge that kindness. I have treated others with respect and objectiveness, whether I agreed with them or not. I have tried to bring a positve light to this blog because I love it, and I love the people here, despite their obvious animosity.
Some of the same people have made what they phrased as "harmless" issues of this in the past, but it was clear to everyone that they had an axe to grind, and they stirred up many bad feelings in the process, like now. So, if the only way to make people stop this questioning of my integrity and honesty and sincerity and validity is to void me from receiving of TP's, then so be it. I honestly don't want to deny others, however, the opportunity to keep using them to encourage one another, because I've witnessed a lot of positive things and fun being derived from the TP system. I love this blog, and I don't love it because of my TP count, I love it because of the people and the Celtics and the friends and the discussion.
PLEASE, mods, feel free to zero me out and block me from receiving further, because I want to give NO ONE here the chance to keep questioning my sincerity or motives, and I do NOT want to give those people any more chances to stir the pot with their pettiness and nasty retributions and incriminations motivated out of jealousy and slander behind my back. THOSE are the kinds of motivations that ruin good communities and blogs, NOT TP counts, for God's sake. I know there are some here who would love me to leave, because of issues they have of insecurity and a need to be condescending and spiteful without question or reproach. But frankly, I love this place as much as they do, and it's as much my community as it is theirs.
So I have no intention of rolling over and playing dead, but I WOULD like to be taken out of the TP pool if that's the only way they'll stop insulting and questioning me with this TP crap. It's a shame, because now something fun and positive has been turned into an axe to grind others on, and it ruins the complexion of a place that is capable of such good things and great conversations. I know my leaving would be giving some here exactly what they want, but it's that reason that motivates me NOT to, because I've seen good people chastened to the point of leaving before, and there's no need of it continuing.
This is truly a sad thing, because those who initiated this did so as a way to shed light, (they thought), on some grand TP injustices, but all they really did in the process was shed light on their own vindictiveness and spiteful motivations. I want to publicly thank all those who have given me TP's so generously in the past, but ask you sincerely to please not give me anymore, because it's only being used against me to question my character, and I want my POSTS and contributions here to do the talking for my intentions, NOT my TP count.
And to those stirring the pot, the NEXT time you want to challenge my sincerity or question my character or belittle my contributions, do so directly in a PM, don't go behind my back like a child to their kindergarten teacher polishing their apple, because you're only giving testament to your OWN vindictiveness, immaturity and spite, and in doing so, turning what was once something fun and positive, into a jagged edge to get back at others. Sad ... very, very sad.
PLEASE MODS, REMOVE me from the TP system, but don't shut OTHERS out ... it's a fun positive thing, and it encourages others to contribute and spread good feelings. But for me it is now only something with which others question my intrigrity, and it's lost it's shine. Thank you.
- Bahku
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